Bismillahirrahmanirrahiim..
In the name of Allah The Most Compassionate The Merciful
I just watched a video about the angels and the jinns by Dr Bilal Philip. Alhamdulillah through there Allah show me how we as muslims should conduct ourselves accordingly by His law as decreed in the Quran. We as muslims believe in Allah, indisputably about his majestic and divine power. We are created solely in this world to submit to him to glorify him. Everything from our health, our foods, clothing, parents, knowledge, and numerous things are all come from Him. Allah's compassion and mercy are far greater and vast than the ocean and the sky. Had he wanted it to punish the disbelievers He could do so by giving them His scourge instead of his bounties.
Now, pertaining to the world of the unseen, we know nothing but a little. What we see through magic or any form of miracles are nothing but the doing of the jinns to deceive and mislead us from Allah.. Naudzubillah. Therefore do not associate yourself with any form of protection or magic associated with jinns. In some cases, people would say that they are receiving the help from Muslim jinn. Still fact of the matter is, Allah alone knows about the world of the unseen, do not try to jeopardize your belief by taking something that we don't even have a knowledge of. Truly I'm seeking refuge in Allah against shaitan and his minions who create mischief on this earth.
Anyhow, another lesson I drawn today is that we do not even know about the world of the unseen for instance amoeba and any microbiological things until only few decades ago that microscope was found. In it we could draw a lesson. Allah's knowledge encompasses everything. He truly is the Lord of the seen and the unseen, The Sustainer, The Mantainer. His prowess far exalted beyond anything and I bear witness that there's no other God beside Allah and prophet Muhammad (saw) is His messenger. Ya Allah, guide me always. Do not let me go astray, and do not let me fear any other beings beside you. Amiin...
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Random thoughts
In the name of Allah The most compassionate The Merciful
I have to say, that being a Muslim is not an easy feast yet it is worth the hardship if what you seek is not this dunya (world). Muslim in this sense is that being someone who believe in Allah in totality, follow His admonishments from the Quran and conducting yourself according to the Sunnah of the prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him). In addition, you also have to believe in the hereafter, in His angels, and ultimately in His mighty wills that He has ordained on each individual. Yet in the real life, it is hard to incorporate all these aspects into our daily ways of living. Mainly because we all are blinded by this worldly things. Media outlets aren't helping much either. Most of the shows and ads revolving around us are portraying what is desirable in this life: wealth, fame, girls, expensive stuff, luxurious housing, posh restaurants, exotic holidays, etc. In this globalized era, everything is expected to be upgraded into internationally accepted standard. People are judge solely by their appearances not by their substance. Money is being worshiped and feared. Rich thugs could earn a respect and adoration hence regarding them as part of the circle of the high echelon of the society based on suferficial things and hypocrisy.
I used to be part of this judgmental society. I was so proud to be someone with a blend of eastern modesty and culture yet at the same time I was equally proud to be exposed to the western value and way of thinking which used to be associated with liberty and democracy. I used to frown upon sisters in Islam on their decision to put on headcover. My thinking was that they were way too young and they're actually slimming their opportunity into attaining happiness in this harsh "real world" in another word I was unconsciously thinking that they were oppressed. Another reason was also because I used to see sisters wearing hijab but hardly perform their duties as Muslimahs: hardly pray, gosipping, fondling and kissing in the public with their boyfriends. These faulty conduct of the Muslimahs was actually got into my nerve that I have sworn to never wear headcover unless I've become an old lady and wise enough to wear them. But my wisdom proven to be wrong. Alhamdulillah through the guidance of Allah the Almighty I realized about the truth. He made me to stumble upon The Deen Show on youtube on the Muslim converts on how happy and relieved they are after reverting back to Islam. On why Islam is the way of life. It suddenly occurred to me that why these former unbelievers could be so deep in their love, trust, and devotion to Allah while me as a born Muslim, schooled in the surrounding Islamic teaching could actually deviate from the truth in many ways. Long story short, Allah shows His will by permitting me a chance to read the translation of the Holy Quran and through exposure of the piety and righteous people that I finally accept His revelation.
Alhamdulillah, right now I am in a much better state of peace and tranquility. Although occasional relapse did and does occur in many instances. For example, I haven't wear hijab yet because of professional reason. I am an unemployed immigrant with no prior English educational background. I have a mom I am obliged to help. I'm so badly wanting to wear hijab but my current circumstances not allowing me too. I also suffered from an inferiority complex when my cousins who are basically real citizens of this country do well and I tend to compare myself with them in term of everything. Bad thoughts did occur to me too that all the misfortunes that befall on me may be caused by Allah forsaking me. Astaughfirullah. Essentially, my faith still need a lot more tweaking for it does falter occasionally. But My Rabb, I seek refuge in you against anything that could lead me away from your guidance.
I have to say, that being a Muslim is not an easy feast yet it is worth the hardship if what you seek is not this dunya (world). Muslim in this sense is that being someone who believe in Allah in totality, follow His admonishments from the Quran and conducting yourself according to the Sunnah of the prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him). In addition, you also have to believe in the hereafter, in His angels, and ultimately in His mighty wills that He has ordained on each individual. Yet in the real life, it is hard to incorporate all these aspects into our daily ways of living. Mainly because we all are blinded by this worldly things. Media outlets aren't helping much either. Most of the shows and ads revolving around us are portraying what is desirable in this life: wealth, fame, girls, expensive stuff, luxurious housing, posh restaurants, exotic holidays, etc. In this globalized era, everything is expected to be upgraded into internationally accepted standard. People are judge solely by their appearances not by their substance. Money is being worshiped and feared. Rich thugs could earn a respect and adoration hence regarding them as part of the circle of the high echelon of the society based on suferficial things and hypocrisy.
I used to be part of this judgmental society. I was so proud to be someone with a blend of eastern modesty and culture yet at the same time I was equally proud to be exposed to the western value and way of thinking which used to be associated with liberty and democracy. I used to frown upon sisters in Islam on their decision to put on headcover. My thinking was that they were way too young and they're actually slimming their opportunity into attaining happiness in this harsh "real world" in another word I was unconsciously thinking that they were oppressed. Another reason was also because I used to see sisters wearing hijab but hardly perform their duties as Muslimahs: hardly pray, gosipping, fondling and kissing in the public with their boyfriends. These faulty conduct of the Muslimahs was actually got into my nerve that I have sworn to never wear headcover unless I've become an old lady and wise enough to wear them. But my wisdom proven to be wrong. Alhamdulillah through the guidance of Allah the Almighty I realized about the truth. He made me to stumble upon The Deen Show on youtube on the Muslim converts on how happy and relieved they are after reverting back to Islam. On why Islam is the way of life. It suddenly occurred to me that why these former unbelievers could be so deep in their love, trust, and devotion to Allah while me as a born Muslim, schooled in the surrounding Islamic teaching could actually deviate from the truth in many ways. Long story short, Allah shows His will by permitting me a chance to read the translation of the Holy Quran and through exposure of the piety and righteous people that I finally accept His revelation.
Alhamdulillah, right now I am in a much better state of peace and tranquility. Although occasional relapse did and does occur in many instances. For example, I haven't wear hijab yet because of professional reason. I am an unemployed immigrant with no prior English educational background. I have a mom I am obliged to help. I'm so badly wanting to wear hijab but my current circumstances not allowing me too. I also suffered from an inferiority complex when my cousins who are basically real citizens of this country do well and I tend to compare myself with them in term of everything. Bad thoughts did occur to me too that all the misfortunes that befall on me may be caused by Allah forsaking me. Astaughfirullah. Essentially, my faith still need a lot more tweaking for it does falter occasionally. But My Rabb, I seek refuge in you against anything that could lead me away from your guidance.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Ya Allah give me strength and courage for not faltering nor wavering for the sake of the truth!!!
Well, It's been well past 3 weeks since my last posting on this blog. A lot of things happened for instance, I just tendered my resignation from the company I had just started working with. Literally, my plans have been derailed. I realized one thing though, while we plan Allah also has His own plan. Basically our plan could never surpass His plan. Perhaps behind all these there are some silver lining.
It is all happened when I noticed that my company I'm working with is a little suspicious. for example, I went to Singapore's site of listed companies to check out about my company background. Apparently, neither my company's name nor its registration number actually listed on ACRA. Secondly, my company is actually some kind of an advisory firm which giving advice to the people who own timeshare or holiday membership package for termination of their membership. Basically my company will call the people from our database asking about their holiday membership and telling them that the timeshare right now is having a problem and they could actually terminate their contract and claim their money through the sub court. What I don't understand is that the bosses' names are essentially changed. They have numerous names on top of their real names. Happened on one occasion I tried to tell the client who inquired about the name of the boss he spoke with but my colleague who's been working longer than me in the company actually warned me against giving my boss other name. She said his other name is actually quite well known in this industry hence it creates problem. When I said "Is that supposed to be something bad?" she only denied "No" and cautioned me against ever mentioning his other name. On top of that he actually signed up with quite a number of credit cards with the billing address on the company but under different names. Well I have to say I smelled a rat here.
And thirdly and most importantly, this company actually preyed on unsuspecting timeshare holders, sweet talked them and charged them exorbitantly. When it comes to refund (as one of the case happened recently) the money that is supposed to be given back to the client is hard to be recovered. The client had to actually threaten to lodge a police report and set a deadline for the money to be transferred in order for the company to really return back the money to her.
I found dishonesty really. I know I'm not in a position to implore this so-called "dishonest" way of my company being run. But I can't help it. I know my livelihood depends on this company. I have to earn money to pay my bills and settle my debt. In addition I need to upgrade my self to an A level certificate. Money money and lots of money is needed. But I don't think I want to be involved in this. And to further deepen my conviction, one of the bosses is actually planned to defect from this company and establish his own (he even invited me over to his soon-to-be-establish company). Sighh... Fyi, the bosses are best buddies and I don't understand why best buddies could do that just to satisfy their greed of money. Anyway, my company isn't doing very well either. The client is so few and far between. Appointments mostly canceled with clients showing up hardly ended up signing a deal. Sighh... My pay last month had to be postponed for few days because of some unforeseeable circumstances.
Right now I really am in the dilemma. My mom n sis actually castigating me. Telling me how foolish I am actually to resign because of the reasons mentioned above. Well, I know I am only a receptionist cum admin assistant who hardly come into contact with the clients or will hardly actually cheat on them. But still working there would inadvertently make me involved. My money among all is actually generated from the clients' money.
Ya Allah, I really want to earn money that really is blessed by you. Halal money. And I don't want to be a subhaaad or associated to my company crime. Please please show me the way I'm begging you!! Disappointed yes but don't make me feel despair and overwhelm by this Ya Rabb The most Graceful The Merciful !!
It is all happened when I noticed that my company I'm working with is a little suspicious. for example, I went to Singapore's site of listed companies to check out about my company background. Apparently, neither my company's name nor its registration number actually listed on ACRA. Secondly, my company is actually some kind of an advisory firm which giving advice to the people who own timeshare or holiday membership package for termination of their membership. Basically my company will call the people from our database asking about their holiday membership and telling them that the timeshare right now is having a problem and they could actually terminate their contract and claim their money through the sub court. What I don't understand is that the bosses' names are essentially changed. They have numerous names on top of their real names. Happened on one occasion I tried to tell the client who inquired about the name of the boss he spoke with but my colleague who's been working longer than me in the company actually warned me against giving my boss other name. She said his other name is actually quite well known in this industry hence it creates problem. When I said "Is that supposed to be something bad?" she only denied "No" and cautioned me against ever mentioning his other name. On top of that he actually signed up with quite a number of credit cards with the billing address on the company but under different names. Well I have to say I smelled a rat here.
And thirdly and most importantly, this company actually preyed on unsuspecting timeshare holders, sweet talked them and charged them exorbitantly. When it comes to refund (as one of the case happened recently) the money that is supposed to be given back to the client is hard to be recovered. The client had to actually threaten to lodge a police report and set a deadline for the money to be transferred in order for the company to really return back the money to her.
I found dishonesty really. I know I'm not in a position to implore this so-called "dishonest" way of my company being run. But I can't help it. I know my livelihood depends on this company. I have to earn money to pay my bills and settle my debt. In addition I need to upgrade my self to an A level certificate. Money money and lots of money is needed. But I don't think I want to be involved in this. And to further deepen my conviction, one of the bosses is actually planned to defect from this company and establish his own (he even invited me over to his soon-to-be-establish company). Sighh... Fyi, the bosses are best buddies and I don't understand why best buddies could do that just to satisfy their greed of money. Anyway, my company isn't doing very well either. The client is so few and far between. Appointments mostly canceled with clients showing up hardly ended up signing a deal. Sighh... My pay last month had to be postponed for few days because of some unforeseeable circumstances.
Right now I really am in the dilemma. My mom n sis actually castigating me. Telling me how foolish I am actually to resign because of the reasons mentioned above. Well, I know I am only a receptionist cum admin assistant who hardly come into contact with the clients or will hardly actually cheat on them. But still working there would inadvertently make me involved. My money among all is actually generated from the clients' money.
Ya Allah, I really want to earn money that really is blessed by you. Halal money. And I don't want to be a subhaaad or associated to my company crime. Please please show me the way I'm begging you!! Disappointed yes but don't make me feel despair and overwhelm by this Ya Rabb The most Graceful The Merciful !!
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